Some days I swear I’m going to lose my mind, keeping track of every little thing I feel paranoid responsibility for monitoring. Most of this is internal, behavior patterns I’m trying to change, habits of thought I’m trying to break… but also it involves some external warfare, against the people trying to enforce this limited existence, this way-I-have-always-been. I’m not sure how to fight, but fight I must, for the sake of myself, my husband, my family… my sanity.

I need to be my own person, unfettered, subjugated by nobody, free to grow into who I want to become. Even in misunderstandings, I cannot allow myself to be stressed further. I’m stressed enough as it is.

(Sorry for the lack of posts. I’m trying to launch a major client site this week and next. Also hoping to launch a fanlisting tomorrow, if all goes well. I’ll start talking more soon, I promise.)