Today I tried to start my work week differently — namely, by working. I’ve had a terrible first two weeks of 2008, and things desperately needed changing. I managed to work all day, with minimal unrelated surfing, email-checking, etc. I caught up on all maintenance and finished a large content rewrite I’ve been working on [...]

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I think the single greatest difficulty with all of this personal growth is the roller-coaster aspect. I’m up, I’m down. I’m way up. I’m upside-down under my desk, I’m falling out of my seat, the restraints are failing, and then I’m up again. Some days are far easier dealt with than others. Yesterday was one [...]

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A lot of my self-confidence issues spring from my habit of allowing my every mistake, misstep and error to call the entire core of my being into question. I made this mistake, am I a bad person now? This decision went wrong, am I bad? I readily admit how very bad, how very wrong and [...]

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Reading a husband’s account of living with a chronically-depressed wife is poignant and eye-opening. A very open and honest post. Makes me wonder what might be said about me, openly, honestly….

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Anyone who has read my adventures with depression, especially this post, do yourself a favor and read Dooce’s brutally honest post on her depression. She says many things that I’ve thought, alluded to or said, but not half as well. (Incidentally, the depression adventures are increasing in number as I go through the deep, dark [...]

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One of many things I never learned to do, growing up, was control my emotions. Although I thought I was bottling things up and keeping my moods to myself, the result was quite the opposite. Apparently I broadcast my moods far and wide, felt by anyone remotely nearby.
Today was likely the first time I’ve tried [...]

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As has been the case lately, days pass and I can’t hardly make enough sense of them to jot them down online. Beyond a rash of busy-ness offline, I’m again struggling with my ability to speak, to blog, to write. It takes force of will to type, right now, but I feel the need so [...]

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