Cleaned the Hoshichan archives through August 2003. I think what I’m most profoundly aware of, seeing all this, is how quickly I became stressed, overwhelmed and depressed once I started school. I think I would’ve told myself anything to reassure myself, but… it’s pretty plain in hindsight that I was NOT happy, pretty much from [...]

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In the end, all the problems I’ve cited here, everything that came up between Thursday and… now… comes down to a serious lack of self-confidence. If it involves any independent thinking, any decision-making, any opinions of any kind, preferences even… I’m outta here. This is a serious problem I’m facing.
Yesterday I reacted with panic and [...]

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My adviser beat me, that’s for sure, I admit it. But darned if he couldn’t beat us both. :P My best friend from UNC just passed his Master’s degree defense today. :DDD Congratulations Rich!!

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Today is my fourth wedding anniversary. For the first time since I took it off, or thereabouts, I think I could wear my wedding dress again. I weigh the same, and in some odd way, I feel like I’ve come full circle, back to where I started — on the brink of starting my “career”, [...]

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Here’s my updated Whois page, which is quite, quite different from what you’re used to. This is true color; this is me. I feel both vulnerable and elated to post “myself” for public viewing, but no matter the consequences, it feels honest, and that’s all I really care about….
When I was standing in the lobby [...]

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I’m not going to attempt to trace the tortured electronic path I followed to get to the following link, but while researching a moon conference, I thought to look for info on the next Lunar and Planetary Science Conference when I found the new LPI Summer Intern Alumni page at LPI’s website. Here I am, [...]

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I suppose part of this falls under the “Obsessing” category, just because I’ve lately been obsessing over U2, mostly over the fact that every concert sold out within 2-3 days and so I can’t even see them in December. ;_; I downloaded the video for All Because of You and drooled over the fact that [...]

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